The sea crept up on the land as if it were weary, and did not care much to flow any more. Not a breath of wind was in motion, and yet the air even on the shore seemed full of the presence of decaying leaves and damp earth. He sat down in the mouth of the cave, and looked out on the still, half-waking world of ocean and sky before him—a leaden ocean, and a dull misty sky; and as he gazed, a sadness came stealing over him, and a sense of the endlessness of labour—labour ever returning on itself and making no progress. The mad laird was always lamenting his ignorance of his origin: Malcolm thought he knew whence he came—and yet what was the much good of life? Where was the end to it all? People so seldom got what they desired! To be sure his life was a happy one, or had been—but there was the poor laird! Why should he be happier than the laird? Why should the laird have a hump and he have none? If all the world were happy but one man, that one’s misery would be as a cairn on which the countless multitudes of the blessed must heap the stones of endless questions and enduring perplexities.
It is one thing to know from whom we come, and another to know from whom we come.
Then his thoughts turned to Lady Florimel. All the splendours of existence radiated from her, but to the glory he could never draw nearer; the celestial fires of the rainbow fountain of her life could never warm him; she cared about nothing he cared about; if they had a common humanity they could not share it; to her he was hardly human. If he were to unfold before her the deepest layers of his thought, she would look at them curiously, as she might watch the doings of an ant or a spider. Had he no right to look for more? He did not know, and sat brooding with bowed head.
Unseen from where he sat, the sun drew nearer the horizon, the light grew; the tide began to ripple up more diligently; a glimmer of dawn touched even the brown rock in the farthest end of the cave.
Where there was light there was work, and where there was work for any one, there was at least justification of his existence. That work must be done, if it should return and return in a never broken circle. Its theory could wait. For indeed the only hope of finding the theory of all theories, the divine idea, lay in the going on of things.
In the meantime, while God took care of the sparrows by himself, he allowed Malcolm a share in the protection of a human heart capable of the keenest suffering—that of the mad laird.
CHAPTER XXXII.
THE SKIPPER’S CHAMBER.
One day towards the close of the fishing-season, the marquis called upon Duncan; and was received with a cordial unembarrassed welcome.
“I want you, Mr MacPhail,” said his lordship, “to come and live in that little cottage, on the banks of the burn, which one of the under game-keepers, they tell me, used to occupy. I’ll have it put in order for you, and you shall live rent-free as my piper.”
“I thank your lortship’s crace,” said Duncan, “and she would pe proud of ta honour, put it’ll pe too far away from ta shore for her poy’s fishing.”